This afternoon I had to say goodbye to my chocolate Dalmatian and old friend, Buck. We've been best friends for a whole lot of years, but he let me know today that he was not going to be able to see me through another Christmas. Life around here seems profoundly different without my Buckleberry Hound. It's Christmas time and I am supposed to be happy, but It's 5:00 in the morning and I can't sleep...I'm so damn sad. Two animals in two days! I can't believe this is all happening! The emotional toll is tough enough to handle but then to add insult to injury, I was already feeling a financial crunch this week and then to have to spend $250. in 48 hours to put down part of my family seems incredibly cruel. I should be spending money on happy things... I'm so worried about Beanie-he and Buck were brothers and best buds--the vet told me to leave Buck's lead and collar out for Beanie to smell and realize that Buck isn't coming back home...and then shower Beans with some extra love and hopefully he will be ok. Please, God...I just pray that the dying is over for us at our house for a very, very long time.