My last gift to Fisen....

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    We went to the emergency clinic today. Fisen's prognosis was not so good. Even if they could get her better we would have had tons of vet appointments ahead of us, she did have bronchitis, food allergies and so bad mouth/teeth. No sure recovery from the pancreas infection. And we only guess she's 7 years old, not knowing for sure. I made the decision to say goodbye to Fisen today. It's with a very heavy heart, but I just couldn't see the life quality for her anymore. I got to love her for 4 years. I think of this as my last gift to her so she doesn't have to be in pain anymore.
    Today my dad would have turned 73 years so there's that too. Thinking of Ossi who we just lost as well. I hope I did the right thing. Thank god we have little baby Siiri to keep us company during this hard time. I wish to thank you all for your support and warmth through all this, again...

    Last pics of Fisen;

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      I am so sorry for your loss. Tearing up at work, I can't even begin to imagine the loss and pain you feel. I hope it brings peace to you knowing you tried everything you could for Fisen and put her best interest at heart even though it means pain for you :cry: For 4 years I can only imagine she was treated like a Queen, a life full of love and happiness :kiss: At least Ossi and Fisen will be reunited again over the rainbow bridge... Sending LOTS of love and hugs to you love :(
       
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        Thank you, so kind...
         
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          I am in tears right now. I am so so so so very sorry for your loss. My heart is broken for you. From all you've been through, all the information you've been given, I feel you made the right choice. A very very tough choice, but Fisen can be at peace, and as said above, frolic with Ossi once more.

          I am so glad you have Siiri. And you have so many incredible memories. And a great big heart <3 You are a fabulous Sphynx Mommy who is blessed and those you have cared for equally blessed.

          Much love and hugs your way.
           
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            Thank you so much! I guess it feels nice to hear because today I feel like the worst pet owner in the world...
             
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              Oh no! My heart breaks for you. I'm so very sorry you had to say goodbye to Fisen. I know how much you love your girl and your heart must be in thousand pieces. And so shortly after losing Ossi...hugs. I hope there is a place where Ossi and Fisen are together now, with your dad cuddling them. I really hope so.

              Siiri, love your mommy and make her laugh now and then. And when she cries, crawl up against her.

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                Thank you so much! Yes, I have to try and think that Ossi met Fisen today, otherwise I can't bear it...It's been a heavy year so far.
                 
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                  And hopefully needless to say but to be sure...never doubt your decision. You showed to be a true loving mommy again and made the decision to go for what was the best for Fisen. Letting go the one you love so deeply and want to hold close, is true love
                   
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                    I'm so sorry for your loss. Remember that you gave her a great life and she knew you loved her.
                     
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                      I’m a mess reading this. I know how hard the loss is when it happens so close together. I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy to have such a broken heart. Your gift to Fisen is the second best gift you can ever give. The first was opening your heart and home in the first place. Fisen was doubly blessed.

                      I am so happy you got Siiri. When we feared we were going to lose our 20 yo Bengal, we added to the family because we wanted them to be an addition, not a replacement...you knew you could never replace Ossi so you were given a blessing to add Siiri never knowing there was a bigger reason on the horizon. May Fisen and Ossi fly across that horizon together. They granted you a new baby to love in a way that they know is amazing.

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                        Thank you! It's gonna take some time to heal and I'm so sad we only got about 4 years with Ossi and Fisen. I needed some more time, some more memories we never had the time to make... I truly hope, because I still have hope, that this is not a rule when owning a sphynx, that I have to say goodbye so early to these stunning souls that push themselves into your heart!
                         
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                          No, it's not a rule. The odds of Ossi and Fisen both passing this young were small. But here's the thing, they normally live until about 15 or so years, so when they pass half way through their life it feels like nothing to us. This may be too logical for how we're all feeling right now but it was just small odds that came through and don't let that bring you down.
                           
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                            @Zab, (((comforting hugs )))) and my deepest heartfelt sympathy for your unselfish love to Fisen to set her free on angle wings ..

                            To be their voice when they cannot speak and love them so unconditionally that is is quality of life over quantity is the hardest heartfelt gift of unselfish love . The say we take the pain so they don't have to.
                            Having lost two babies of mine so close together , I get it deep in my heart .
                            When I feel thst hurt I think of the quote "there is no death , only a change of worlds ".
                            For me they are free and whole together at the rainbow bridge world.

                            To do right by them when they needed it most is so hard , I know sweetie .(((hugs)))))
                            No time is ever enough

                            My heart breaks for you for your losses . May Ossi and Fisen Fly free and whole and meet up with your dad and share stories of all the love they knew in this world .
                            Hold the fondest memories closest to heart and know Ossi and Fisen will always have your eternal love .

                            I truly believe they send us the one to love like they knew in this world . They certainly sent you precious Siiri
                            To share Sphynx love wrapped around your heart

                            Ossi and Fisen touched hearts forever
                            (((Hugs))) here for you ...

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                            I just am....forever and ever and ever. "
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                              Siiri, alone again... thank god I have her today. The fact that she depends on me keeps me going. She slept with me and on me all night.

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                                She will help heal your heart...she was sent for a reason. Hoping today is a tiny bit easier for you.
                                 
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                                  I'm so very sorry for your loss. I get so emotional reading these posts because I know how devastating it is to lose one of these special babies. My heart aches for you and the pain that you are going through. Especially because you are questioning your decision. When my boy was sick I made the decision to try one last medication to help him before turning to euthanasia. We were going to give it 8 hours to see if he improved. He passed on his own in that time. I still get upset with myself nearly five months later for not having made "the right choice." My point is, there's no easy way to say goodbye. You did the best you could for Fisen throughout her life and you did the same at the end. Please take care of yourself, cuddle your little baby girl a lot, and know that there are many of us thinking about you and sending love.


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                                    Within the sadness I'm happy you have Sirri to give you love and cuddles. It won't make the loss of Fisen and Ossi less sad but hopefully she needs your love and that makes sure the love keeps going
                                     
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                                      I’m sorry to hear about your loss. Fisen will be missed here as well.
                                       
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                                        @Zab , continuing hugs and head smooches to Siiri
                                         
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                                          Thank you! Death does not part us, only lack of love.... fingers crossed that Fisen sends us a new angel and a buddy for Siiri!
                                           
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                                            @Zab, beautiful quote I will remember it always ((hugs))))
                                            Fisen and Ossi will send you and Siiri the one

                                            I hope when you feel up to it
                                            You can post a thread of Siiri pics and tales
                                             
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                                              It will come. I feel that being here among you guys is the perfect way for me get through this. If I go overboard, feel free to tell me to shut up!
                                               
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                                                Oh sweetie , here for you and Siiri
                                                I get it -
                                                I actually had made a memorial clock to honor "the best of times " with my Yoda girl that got her wings too too soon at age 2.
                                                The lair family gets it
                                                I even borrowed books from the library on pet loss which for me helped the healing too .

                                                We are all here for you

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                                                  I'm not a religious person but I feel it in my heart that I will meet them again someday!
                                                   
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                                                    Zab, I am not a religiois person either ,
                                                    I do look to the night sky and whisper " till then .." And thank them for the best moments together I wouldn't have missed for the world

                                                    I even kept my avatar pic to honor my ^Yoda girl^
                                                    I just can't change it in my heart
                                                     
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