16th Birthday

[HeatherC]

Today is my Victor's 16th birthday. Or rather, it would have been. We should be going for a car ride, watching the fish in the pet store, and enjoying the first day of Spring. Instead I have empty arms, a broken heart, and pain beyond measure. I have a nose print, a tiny hand print, and a small box of ashes. I have only memories. I want my sweet boy back. I want the cuddles. I want the demanding meow. I want to have to give over ever bite I wish to consume to be inspected first. I want all of it..and all I have is pain.

 

[Catzzzmeow]

I am so sorry you are dealing with the loss and the emotions that go with losing your baby. Keep the best memories closest to your heart.

 

[Annejo12]

It is so difficult to go through what you are going through. I feel your pain having lost my kitty to HCM in January. The days I struggle the most are the days I do something nice for myself. Take care of yourself and enjoy the memories.

 

[Yoda mom]

@HeatherC , (((hugs))) heavenly 16th birthday sweet Victor. I know too well the emotions of recent loss then my babies birthday. here for you. no matter my pain I would not have missed the journey of so much love for anything in this world.
(sharing I joined fb pet parent survivors group a soft place to land with care and support like here).
Victor was truly a warrior ,I recall from your previous posts, with the bestest of love and care beyond measure. He could not have asked for a better mum. No Greater love. He only knows your eternal love. May love be what you remember most. and every now and then mine send a little sign their spirit all around.

 

[Toa and Ross]

Sending you hugs. So sorry for the loss of your Victor. I feel your pain. Keep the memories close to your heart. This way his love will stay for you forever

 

[nudebea]

I am so sorry to hear of your grief, when they go they leave such an empty place in our lives .You still have , and always will, the love you feel for Victor and the memories . He became part of you and will always lie on in your heart . Sending you hugs across the miles

 

[tuffysmommy]

I so very much feel your pain. Too much to have written anything. Sixteen years ago tomorrow 3 cats were born and I adopted them that August. Tomorrow Foxy will celebrate her birthday alone. We lost her littermate Biscuit Thursday 5 March and sister Paka (my avatar) 19 March 2022. We got Foxy an automatic feeder which is at her beck and call with her pretty new rfid chip breakaway collar. I guess that’s the best we can do for a gift besides our love. I am hoping she will translate her love for Biscuit who she was only without for fleeting moments in her life to her new naked sister Toni. When I turn around too fast, I think I see Biscuit. When things feel different in bed I realize that was something only Biscuit did. She came home in a lovely rosewood box the other day and then the deepest of sorrows set in. They say life is too short…but their lives are shorter…

 

[HeatherC]

I am so heartbroken for you.

 

[tuffysmommy]

Thanks and me for you and all who lose their babies. We love them with all of our hearts, which are broken when they are gone. I have to concentrate on Foxy and Toni now and pray for them to be well and love each other. Thats all I can do.

 

[HeatherC]

I am so glad you have Foxy and Toni.

 

[tuffysmommy]

After a while I hope you find a way to fill that empty space…not Victor’s space ever…but the excess love that remains to be filled. It can take a long while, but its easier, I found, if you do that if you are ready.