beyond devastated - Rest easy Mortimer

[Taylyria]

Mortimer had to be euthanized today. I was granted 6 extra months with him. 6 wonderful loving months. my poor baby boy threw a clot and became paralyzed. there was nothing we could do to save him. i didn’t want him to suffer anymore. he passed in my arms. i’m so devastated. i truly do not know how i’m going to go on. it’s not fair. we were supposed to have 10 more years together. he was doing so well on all his meds. what changed? why him? why us? why can nothing ever go right in my life. i’ve lost my best friend. this sounds so dramatic but i really just don’t know how i can live without him. my entire heart is destroyed and i truly don’t see how i’m going to be able to recover from this loss.
i love you so much Mortimer. my sweet angel. i’m so sorry.

 

[Yoda mom]

@Taylyria , oh my heart... (((((((squeeze hugs))))))). I am soo very sorry for your devastating loss of sweet bestie Mortimer. I share in the immeasurable hurt as my Yoda (avatar pic I keep in her honor) got her angel wings suddenly at a tender young age, the same throwing a clot. its just not fair. I know there are no right words... I am here for you my friend. pm me anytime.. anytime... I was physically ill with grief, I know it hurts so much. you are not alone. your lair family is here for you always. **I joined petparent survivors facebook group. a community of so much care, comfort, understanding and support like your sphynxlair family. @Taylyria , Pet Parent Survivors | Facebook

my heart hurts so much for you.. teary eyed here....
Mortimer only knows your eternal love. he touched hearts forever and ever. He could not have for a better mum and love and care. Remember the love, soo much love.
"Replied the glorious cat For I will whisper into their hearts That I am always with them I just am....forever and ever and ever." - poem for cats.

lighting a candle for Mortimer. rest easy sweet boy, my Yoda girl, Yodaman will meet you to run free together sharing stories of all the love known in this world.
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[Yoda mom]

. @Taylyria here for you sweetie

 

[Catzzzmeow]

I am so sorry to hear your angel gained their wings. I know first hand how heart issues throw so many curveballs. Fly high sweet baby…you were loved beyond measure…and that is everything. We are here for you…reach out to any of us for extra emotional support you need. Keep the best memories closest to your heart.

 

[Taylyria]

his heated bed smells like him. i’m not going to wash it. i’m gonna miss his potatoey smell the most. and his warm warm belly. i hate this. it’s not fair.

 

[kauna]

I am so very sorry of your loss. We never get as much time as we would like and with them having any heart issue you are blessed with whatever time they have left. It is truly heartbreaking just know that all he knew was your love.

 

[Beckinboots]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope your heartache eases soon.

 

[Toa and Ross]

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your beloved Mortimer. He knew nothing but your love and that means the world. Sending lots of hugs and love

 

[Taylyria]

thank you all for your words of comfort. i’m just trying to get by minute by minute. it’s all i can really do. i miss my boy like crazy and i swear i can hear his meow late at night. i get his ashes back in a few days and i’m going to be getting a cremation ring made. i cant wait until he’s home

 

[Catzzzmeow]

@Taylyria we lost our girl on Friday. I know the waves of emotion that just come over you out of no where. I totally know what you mean about hearing sounds. We swear we heard our girl jump on the table in the living room last night like she always did. Hubby and I both looked over at the same time…it was so weird. Just know they are forever in our hearts. You will feel better when he comes back home.

 

[Taylyria]

picked up my baby's ashes today. i'm so happy to have him back at home.

 

[Catzzzmeow]

So happy he is home and I hope you are feeling more closure. It is so hard. Waiting to hear I can bring our girlie home too. Hope you are taking care of yourself. Happy you are home Mortimer…just the place you should be and forever in many hearts.

 

[Taylyria]

So happy he is home and I hope you are feeling more closure. It is so hard. Waiting to hear I can bring our girlie home too. Hope you are taking care of yourself. Happy you are home Mortimer…just the place you should be and forever in many hearts.

I have been thinking of you and wishing the same for you. I hope your girl comes home soon. How loved our babies were.
I've decided to start looking into getting a kitten to help ease my heartache. Even though I have other pets, the house still feels so terribly quiet. Mortimer was loud, dramatic and a pain in everyone's ass but he was the best companion I've ever had. Hopefully soon I can have another little velcro rubber chicken to help mend my broken heart.
For now I'll just hold onto this urn and rewatch videos and look at the millions of pictures I've taken of him.

 

[Catzzzmeow]

I have been thinking of you and wishing the same for you. I hope your girl comes home soon. How loved our babies were.
I've decided to start looking into getting a kitten to help ease my heartache. Even though I have other pets, the house still feels so terribly quiet. Mortimer was loud, dramatic and a pain in everyone's ass but he was the best companion I've ever had. Hopefully soon I can have another little velcro rubber chicken to help mend my broken heart.
For now I'll just hold onto this urn and rewatch videos and look at the millions of pictures I've taken of him.

Just keep remembering the best memories…it is so hard and I give you kudos for searching for another possible heart healer…you’ll know when it feels right.

 

[nudebea]

I am so sorry to hear of your heartbreaking loss , just know that people on this wonderful site will understand what you are going through right now. Sending you comforting hugs xxx

 

[Toa and Ross]

Good to hear your boy is back home. Keep the good memories close in your heart.

 

[Taylyria]

So, a lot has happened in this last month between losing Mortimer and now.

I bought an urn ring as a temporary remembrance piece for Mortimer until i can figure out a more permanent piece. I thought that this would be a nice way to keep him with me while I save up and make my final decisions.

I also accepted a job at my vet's office! I'll be a receptionist there and it's honestly a dream come true. I start next week and I'm very excited to start my journey in this career field.
Mortimer also sent me a new little buddy to love on and help heal my heart. He has two little white toes, similar to what Mortimer had, and then circumstances of me being able to adopt him feel very meant to be. I was late on choosing a kitten from this litter, second in line to adopt a little boy, but knew in my heart that I wouldn't be getting the one I had originally picked out. 14 minutes later, "Lawrence" popped up and I immediately sent an inquiry to adopt him. He originally was intended to be someone else's, but they had, at last minute, declined to adopt him as they weren't ready after their recent loss. I was the first person to ask, and so he was mine! Lawrence also happens to be my late grandfathers name, so that just felt extra special in the moment.

This is him! My future nakie void baby. <3 I've decided to name him Cornelius. It was a name I had picked out for Mortimer originally but decided to change. I wish Mortimer was here to meet his baby brother but I feel he was hand picked in heaven by him for me. <3

 

[pussiette]

I am so very sorry for your loss. We are here for you.

 

[Beckinboots]

Congratulations on finding a new buddy. I hope Cornelius brings you as much joy, happiness and love as Mortimer did.

 

[Toa and Ross]

What a beautiful memorial for Mortimer. Love the ring, what a lovely idea!
And congrats on expecting! Cornelius is a very handsome cutie.

 

[Catzzzmeow]

I smiled the whole time reading your update. The ring is great…and your soon to be baby is adorable. Mortimer would be thrilled to know you opened your heart to love again and spoil another baby with love like you gave to him.

 

[Yoda mom]

@Taylyria , (((hugs)))) the beautiful ring so heartfelt, Mortimer with you always.

I truly believe they send us the one to love like they knew in this world. no doubt Mortimer sent your adorable baby lawrence for your grandfathers name, and with his new name Cornelius. indeed a very special a name. love the 2 white toes. a part of him in spirit with you and Cornelius always. Cornelius certainly meant to be . he is stunning! melt my heart. Mortimer surely watching over and had his toes in hearts aligning for your heart healer and timing.

congrats on your new dream job!!! so happy for you~

keep us updated on gotcha day. dont hesitate to start your own post with Cornelius and upcoming gotcha. big hugs