Izidora
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I did write a short story in "The Pain Never Goes" thread but I feel the need to write the entire story, as these days I am thinking about Teenoo again and still crying. It's been 3 months now. 
I wanted to have a sphynx cat for 5 years. My country is a small country and here sphynxes are not well known and accepted. We did have one official breeder who stopped breeding two years ago or something like that. They were also mega super expensive, something I could never afford with my incomes. So I browsed the websites in search for a sphynx and in 2015 my wish finally came true. I found a breeder, whom I later realized was something people call backyard breeder, and got my first sphynx. Teenoo-neenoo was a special little fellow, lovely and quiet member of our small family (me-my bf-our sphynx), we walked him on a leash ocassionally, we went to the vacation with him, he saw the sea, my grandfather's house, met my parents...slept with me in our bed...had a funny habit of raping my arm which remained even after his neutering, everyone thought it was gross but I found it cute Whenever we unlocked our apartment, he was there on the other side of the door on a cupboard, meowing, welcoming us home. In september we got him a younger brother Silvio and they immediately learned to love each other. On the second day they were inseparable and we were so happy for Teenoo wasn't alone anymore when we're at work.
On 2nd november 2016., I went to the work and since I was in a rush, I forgot to say goodbye to them, and I usually do. It was a long day...my boyfriend had some friends to meet after work and I went to a tattoo saloon to get my first tattoo. Around 8 pm I got a call from my boyfriend...hyperventilating, crying...Teenoo is DEAD, he is dead! I was in such a shock that I did not believe it. My hands started to shake uncontrollably as I kept repeating "are you sure he's not breathing? Is he still warm or is he cold? Put him in a blanket! We will go to the emergency vet's! If you keep him warm maybe they can save him! Are you sure he did not eat something? Look in his mouth! Is there anything broken in the house? Is it electricity? But he never ever touched wires! Could he eat something poisonous? But we never leave anything out...." - I kept freaking out, forgetting that a 1 yr 4 months cat could also die of a heart attack. My boyfriend kept crying. "He is stone cold...he is gone...there's a foul stench...he's probably been dead from this morning...there's nothing we can do...oh god Teenoo is dead"....
And so the day of joy, for I got my first tattoo, also turned into a huge and biggest day of sorrow and sadness. My bf came to pick me up...as we came home I just had to see him once more....so my bf opened the plastic bag - it looked as if he was sleeping...I touched him but he was so cold and stiff...I wanted to hold him in my arms for the last time but the smell was so bad I just covered the bag and we cried long into the night. Silvio was under the bed when my boyfriend found Teenoo and wouldn't want to come out. He was there with his dead body the entire day...who knows, did he lick him? Did he tried to wake him up? Did he curl up beside him? So many questions in my head. I still wonder...could I do something, if I was at home? No. The poor guy probably chased around with Silvio and the heart stopped so he probably collapsed and died instantly. Was he in pain? I do not know. I did not say goodbye to him that day! Because I thought I will see him in the evening....oh I wish he died in my arms, he died alone - but no, not alone, my bf says, "Silvio was there..it all happened so fast probably, that he didn't even see it coming..he just collapsed...and now I can't erase the pic from my head...him laying down on the flood, mouth and eyes wide opened....it was horror.."
Tomorrow morning we took him for an autopsy. The results said "unknown heart failure". I googled the symptoms of HCM and started to connect pieces....except for him being lethargic and sleeping a lot, also sometimes having a cough, I noticed this strange coldness on his back part of the body. Thought he was cold, so I put clothes on him, turned the heating on - no, it was not that. It started right after we got Silvio. So my thoughts are, he was sick from his birth and since he was inactive, nothing really happened but ever since Silvio arrived, they were constantly active and playing, his heart just couldn't take it.
I shared the results in a small local sphynx group on facebook, where members are the breeder and her friends and fellows who have her kittens. Her friends then attacked me saying that I have no real proof that he died from HCM, that I googled it and that it's not valid., that her cats are healthy and that I was a bad owner - I posted a story of our vacation how Teenoo was hot and so I put moistened cloth on him to make him feel better and they turned it all upside down, turned out as if I almost killed the poor guy for he was travelling in a car on such hot day...nevermind that. I went with autopsy results to see other vets, since mine was not able to tell me anything. One did say it was HCM, other said it was not. His heart was 7-8mm thick, I do not know what are the standards for discovering HCM. They also found changes on his lungs and liver. But whatever, it does not matter now.
My bf was feeling horrible for 3 more weeks, remembering him and crying...I was more in a state of shock and I focused on Silvio, who was crying and searching for Teenoo Somehow I transformed my sadness into a huge love towards Silvio, his younger brother....with whom I connected deepy and now I have huge worries - what if he too gets HCM? I did alert the breeder and she said she will check on her cats as well but it does not matter...there can be only carrier cats, right, they do not have to be sick in order to genetically transmit hcm onto their offspring..
A couple pics of my sweet baby to remember him...I will forever love you and you will always be in my heart, dear Teenoo-neenoo
I wanted to have a sphynx cat for 5 years. My country is a small country and here sphynxes are not well known and accepted. We did have one official breeder who stopped breeding two years ago or something like that. They were also mega super expensive, something I could never afford with my incomes. So I browsed the websites in search for a sphynx and in 2015 my wish finally came true. I found a breeder, whom I later realized was something people call backyard breeder, and got my first sphynx. Teenoo-neenoo was a special little fellow, lovely and quiet member of our small family (me-my bf-our sphynx), we walked him on a leash ocassionally, we went to the vacation with him, he saw the sea, my grandfather's house, met my parents...slept with me in our bed...had a funny habit of raping my arm which remained even after his neutering, everyone thought it was gross but I found it cute
Whenever we unlocked our apartment, he was there on the other side of the door on a cupboard, meowing, welcoming us home. In september we got him a younger brother Silvio and they immediately learned to love each other. On the second day they were inseparable and we were so happy for Teenoo wasn't alone anymore when we're at work.On 2nd november 2016., I went to the work and since I was in a rush, I forgot to say goodbye to them, and I usually do. It was a long day...my boyfriend had some friends to meet after work and I went to a tattoo saloon to get my first tattoo. Around 8 pm I got a call from my boyfriend...hyperventilating, crying...Teenoo is DEAD, he is dead! I was in such a shock that I did not believe it. My hands started to shake uncontrollably as I kept repeating "are you sure he's not breathing? Is he still warm or is he cold? Put him in a blanket! We will go to the emergency vet's! If you keep him warm maybe they can save him! Are you sure he did not eat something? Look in his mouth! Is there anything broken in the house? Is it electricity? But he never ever touched wires! Could he eat something poisonous? But we never leave anything out...." - I kept freaking out, forgetting that a 1 yr 4 months cat could also die of a heart attack. My boyfriend kept crying. "He is stone cold...he is gone...there's a foul stench...he's probably been dead from this morning...there's nothing we can do...oh god Teenoo is dead"....
And so the day of joy, for I got my first tattoo, also turned into a huge and biggest day of sorrow and sadness. My bf came to pick me up...as we came home I just had to see him once more....so my bf opened the plastic bag - it looked as if he was sleeping...I touched him but he was so cold and stiff...I wanted to hold him in my arms for the last time but the smell was so bad I just covered the bag and we cried long into the night. Silvio was under the bed when my boyfriend found Teenoo and wouldn't want to come out. He was there with his dead body the entire day...who knows, did he lick him? Did he tried to wake him up? Did he curl up beside him? So many questions in my head. I still wonder...could I do something, if I was at home? No. The poor guy probably chased around with Silvio and the heart stopped so he probably collapsed and died instantly. Was he in pain? I do not know. I did not say goodbye to him that day! Because I thought I will see him in the evening....oh I wish he died in my arms, he died alone - but no, not alone, my bf says, "Silvio was there..it all happened so fast probably, that he didn't even see it coming..he just collapsed...and now I can't erase the pic from my head...him laying down on the flood, mouth and eyes wide opened....it was horror.."
Tomorrow morning we took him for an autopsy. The results said "unknown heart failure". I googled the symptoms of HCM and started to connect pieces....except for him being lethargic and sleeping a lot, also sometimes having a cough, I noticed this strange coldness on his back part of the body. Thought he was cold, so I put clothes on him, turned the heating on - no, it was not that. It started right after we got Silvio. So my thoughts are, he was sick from his birth and since he was inactive, nothing really happened but ever since Silvio arrived, they were constantly active and playing, his heart just couldn't take it.
I shared the results in a small local sphynx group on facebook, where members are the breeder and her friends and fellows who have her kittens. Her friends then attacked me saying that I have no real proof that he died from HCM, that I googled it and that it's not valid., that her cats are healthy and that I was a bad owner - I posted a story of our vacation how Teenoo was hot and so I put moistened cloth on him to make him feel better and they turned it all upside down, turned out as if I almost killed the poor guy for he was travelling in a car on such hot day...nevermind that. I went with autopsy results to see other vets, since mine was not able to tell me anything. One did say it was HCM, other said it was not. His heart was 7-8mm thick, I do not know what are the standards for discovering HCM. They also found changes on his lungs and liver. But whatever, it does not matter now.
My bf was feeling horrible for 3 more weeks, remembering him and crying...I was more in a state of shock and I focused on Silvio, who was crying and searching for Teenoo
Somehow I transformed my sadness into a huge love towards Silvio, his younger brother....with whom I connected deepy and now I have huge worries - what if he too gets HCM? I did alert the breeder and she said she will check on her cats as well but it does not matter...there can be only carrier cats, right, they do not have to be sick in order to genetically transmit hcm onto their offspring..A couple pics of my sweet baby to remember him...I will forever love you and you will always be in my heart, dear Teenoo-neenoo
