Last goodbye

[HappyLilSphynx]

My sweet baby girl woke me up around midnight yesterday ... she couldn't use her back legs. Even though she was on heart meds, she threw a blood clot (when I had her at the cardio 3 months ago, he said he expected her to continue to CHF and that, when she got there, we'd treat her for that - but that he expected my little one to be around for awhile!)

I brought her to the emergency vet, and we tried heparin (I think that's the name) to break up the clot (we both knew it doesn't work often, but wanted to give her every chance she had). Like with so many other kitties, it didn't work for Safari.

At 3, she wasn't ready to go - she had lots of life left to live and all of the love in the world to give, but her body failed her. She died in my arms (euthanasia) just before 80 yesterday morning. She's been such a big part of my life that I'm not sure where to start from here (besides giving myself LOTS of time to cry) :cry:

 

[Catzzzmeow]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. Keep the best memories closest to your heart. We are hear for you.

Patti

 

[NinaGato]

So sorry for your loss.

 

[Lickleone]

(((((Hugs))))))

 

[Toa and Ross]

I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart breaks for you. Glad to hear you were with Safari all the time and you held her in your arms when she passed. Until the end she knew nothing but your love. A big hug.

 

[susi794]

Oh, I hate these kind of posts...my heart breaks a little more each time I read one.
I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet baby, Safari. It's just so unfair that that damn disease (HCM) claimed another dear sweet little life, that wanted nothing more than to bring her humans happiness. I agree with Toa and Ross....all she knew to her last breath was your love. Thank you for being brave enough to let her pass gently across the bridge in your arms. I believe you will see her again, when it's your time to go, I am certain she will be waiting at the gate to hop back into your arms again and smother you with purrs and head butts. Because love doesn't die. She took it with her and she will have it forever. She knew she was loved and that is everything.
Understanding your sorrow,
Susi

 

[AlexaEels]

I am so sorry for your loss. Sometimes tears are the best path to healing.

 

[sweenz]

My sweet baby girl woke me up around midnight yesterday ... she couldn't use her back legs. Even though she was on heart meds, she threw a blood clot (when I had her at the cardio 3 months ago, he said he expected her to continue to CHF and that, when she got there, we'd treat her for that - but that he expected my little one to be around for awhile!)

I brought her to the emergency vet, and we tried heparin (I think that's the name) to break up the clot (we both knew it doesn't work often, but wanted to give her every chance she had). Like with so many other kitties, it didn't work for Safari.

At 3, she wasn't ready to go - she had lots of life left to live and all of the love in the world to give, but her body failed her. She died in my arms (euthanasia) just before 80 yesterday morning. She's been such a big part of my life that I'm not sure where to start from here (besides giving myself LOTS of time to cry) :cry:

I am so sorry to hear about your little baby. It is a sad day. I know the feeling we look at their cute little faces and fall in love and it is heart breaking to let go because they are so sweet. Mr. Biggs was my first Sphynx and he opened my heart to know my family and I will help and love another baby. Your baby was lucky she had you to love and take care of her.

 

[AMEDooley]

In sorry that you lost her. Always a sad day when you lose loved ones. My families thoughts are with you and yours.

 

[MelissaAlice]

Keep all the good memories close to you and know that her whole life she knew nothing but love and kindness because you where always there for her.

 

[Yoda mom]

@HappyLilSphynx , Oh sweetie, my heart breaks for you ... I am so so sorry to learn the sad news of the passing of Safari ..
( My Yoda cat at two years old also had blood clots amd left this world too soon- I truly understand)

they take a peace of our hearts with them - and live in our hearts forever
Safari only knew your love - hold fast to the precious moments and let those moments fill your heart-
I will be thinking of you with the biggest (((comforting hugs)))

Rest in Peace sweet ^Safari^
You touched hearts forever

"Replied the glorious cat
For I will whisper into their hearts
That I am always with them
I just am....forever and ever and ever."
Author unknown from poem for cats

 

[Xandria]

I am so sorry for your loss. I always choke up when a fellow Lairian experiences a passing. Having lost companions in the past, I know that keeping memories close to heart and soul are irreplaceable. Hugs to you and yours.

 

[Hairless Blessing]

How sorry I am to hear this. It's heartbreaking, I will be
Praying for you.

 

[HappyLilSphynx]

Thank for all of the love an support. All I can think about are the happy memories and the wonderful bond we shared. I'm gonna miss my amazing girl forever, but wouldn't trade a minute of the time I had with her for the world!

 

[Hairless Blessing]

Bless your heart.

 

[HappyLilSphynx]

I posted this on another thread, but I want to make sure everyone who has commented sees it ...

Thanks everyone - I appreciate all of the love and support.

I'm heartbroken that my baby is gone - but I know that she had some of the best medical care in the world, I did everything I could for her (for the past two years, I've even gotten up early on my days off to make sure that she got her meds at the same time each day!), and that we at least doubled her lifespan (when she was first diagnosed, the cardiologist and vet didn't think she'd make it to age 2 - and she made it to 3 1/2!) That's a victory in and of itself! On top of that, I know she'll never have any of the pain or symptoms of CHF - and that she lived every single day as the happy little active soul she was! <3 I also don't have to worry that she'll throw a blood clot while I'm not home - and be scared and in pain for up to 14 hours (between work and the hour drive to the emergency vet). I'm sad she's gone, and have cried many times each day - but am at absolute peace knowing I did what was best for her. She and I shared a special bond, and although there will be another cat (most likely a sphynx) in my life in the future, it won't be the same. Instead of focusing on the fact that I should have another decade with her, I'm focusing on the fact that I had her longer than anyone expected after her original diagnosis - and that I am so, so lucky to have shared 3+ years with such an amazing little soul <3

 

[Yoda mom]

@HappyLilSphynx , (( hugs))) ^Safari^ lives in your heart forever and ever -
An eternal bond

THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS
AT RAINBOW BRIDGE

'Twas the night before Christmas, at Rainbow Bridge too.
We Bridgekids were thinking as always of you.
We'd seen how the holidays weren't bright this year,
Heard you whisper so often, "I wish you were here!"

We know how you wish you could just stay in bed
And sleep through the holiday lying ahead,
When all celebrate with their loved ones so near...
Unless they have loved ones on this side this year.

But we're no less alive here, on the other side.
If you could just see us, you'd've laughed and not cried.
The dogs all in harness, pulling the sleigh.
The cats all in Santa hats pointing the way.

The pet birds all flying back over the rainbow,
Bound homeward in spite of Earth's darkness and snow.
All the pets that you've lost, pets for whom you've cried,
Flying home on this Christmas to be by your side.

If you feel warm fur brush you when no pet's around,
Hear a soft bark or purr, just a ghost of a sound,
We're trying to tell you we're visiting this way,
And our visits, even rainbows, can be on any day.

But for Christmas we have something special to do,
A sleighful of happy dream visits for you.
On doggy, on kitty, on winged friend and ferret!
The love that you lavished, we mean now to share it!

We're fetching that love home, the way we once played,
With the closeness we shared and the memories we made.
Our Earth lives with you were too short for us, too,
And on this Christmas Eve we have so much to do.

So all through this night as you sleep in your beds,
Sweet visions of furbabies dance in your heads.
This one special night we can bring you Home for a while,
Your true home in Heaven, where again you will smile.

Over the rainbow you'll fly, for a short while this night,
Hours that you'll be happy, hours that will feel right,
Hours to cuddle and hug us, to run and to play,
Before the return to Earth in our magic way.

And when you awaken and face Christmas Day,
We pray you'll remember your trip on our sleigh,
But in case you forget, just remember our love.
Remember us watching you, your angels above.

Sending love wrapped in rainbows, shining and bright,
Love that will guide you through the darkest night,
Love found in each memory unwrapped through the year,
Replacing dark sorrows with Christmas cheer.

Leave the toys to St. Nick, we Bridgekids bring dreams,
Sweet visits to remind you all is not as it seems
When you look all around you with tired Earthly eyes.
If you saw as we do, there'd be joy and surprise.

There are furangels waiting by those Christmas trees,
Always there for you and hearing your pleas.
We're never more than a thought away from your home,
You're never forgotten, you're never alone.

Nor are we alone here, with our Rainbow Bridge friends.
We know only joy here, the celebrating never ends,
And after our reunions with you Christmas Eve,
We Bridgekids will party like you'd never believe.

But we'll slip away often to be by your side.
Sitting there watching you, eyes open wide,
Praying you'll be able to catch a glimpse of us, too.
But whether or not you see us - Merry Christmas to you!

- Cindy Morgan (2007)

 

[admin]

So sorry to hear this. RIP Safari.

 

[nudieluvr]

So sorry to hear of this unexpected loss. Thank you did caring for Safari the way you did. Hugs!

 

[GoldHazel]

My sweet baby girl woke me up around midnight yesterday ... she couldn't use her back legs. Even though she was on heart meds, she threw a blood clot (when I had her at the cardio 3 months ago, he said he expected her to continue to CHF and that, when she got there, we'd treat her for that - but that he expected my little one to be around for awhile!)

I brought her to the emergency vet, and we tried heparin (I think that's the name) to break up the clot (we both knew it doesn't work often, but wanted to give her every chance she had). Like with so many other kitties, it didn't work for Safari.

At 3, she wasn't ready to go - she had lots of life left to live and all of the love in the world to give, but her body failed her. She died in my arms (euthanasia) just before 80 yesterday morning. She's been such a big part of my life that I'm not sure where to start from here (besides giving myself LOTS of time to cry) :cry:

My heart breaks for you. Biggest hugs sent your way. RIP Safari

 

[TheTopaz]

I am so sorry <3 Sending so much love your way.

 

[HappyLilSphynx]

Thanks again for all of the love and support <3! I'm at peace knowing that I did everything I could for Safari while she was alive, and am at absolute peace knowing that letting go when I did was the best thing for her (knowing her diagnoses and prognosis, I didn't want to put her through a lot of medical things that would, at best, lengthen her passing while causing pain and suffering). I'm not yet at peace with the fact that she's not here - but know that will come with time. Somehow, our paths crossed when we both needed some extra love and companionship; I don't regret a single moment I spent or memory I made with my sweet girl.

While I'm not ready to adopt a sphynx, I have reached out to a sphynx rescue group to offer to foster any hairless babies that might show up in the area (I live in NE Florida on the border with GA); I'd be happy to reach out to other sphynx rescues (if any of you happen to know if some, please let me know!) When I returned Safari's Christmas presents, I donated the money to the Winn Foundation (they have a specific fund for HCM research). Safari's information is also being included in a huge study from the University of Florida about cats and heart conditions - so hopefully that can help others in some small way

 

[GoldHazel]

Thanks again for all of the love and support <3! I'm at peace knowing that I did everything I could for Safari while she was alive, and am at absolute peace knowing that letting go when I did was the best thing for her (knowing her diagnoses and prognosis, I didn't want to put her through a lot of medical things that would, at best, lengthen her passing while causing pain and suffering). I'm not yet at peace with the fact that she's not here - but know that will come with time. Somehow, our paths crossed when we both needed some extra love and companionship; I don't regret a single moment I spent or memory I made with my sweet girl.

While I'm not ready to adopt a sphynx, I have reached out to a sphynx rescue group to offer to foster any hairless babies that might show up in the area (I live in NE Florida on the border with GA); I'd be happy to reach out to other sphynx rescues (if any of you happen to know if some, please let me know!) When I returned Safari's Christmas presents, I donated the money to the Winn Foundation (they have a specific fund for HCM research). Safari's information is also being included in a huge study from the University of Florida about cats and heart conditions - so hopefully that can help others in some small way

To an extent, I felt like I was reading my words after I lost my little girl. Your words brought tears to my eyes. BIGGEST hugs to you. I wish that your empty heart will be filled with joy again soon.

 

[Catzzzmeow]

That is so thoughtful of you to make a donation in honor of your baby like that. You have the right attitude and know your limits. Hopefully one day you will be ready to bring home a baby to call your own.

Patti

 

[HappyLilSphynx]

I'll get there - it will just take time! I'm open to a shelter sphynx, retired breeder, etc. - as long as it has the right personality (and can get along with my ginormous hairy cat!)